I'm currently working on the chapter about Jairus and his daughter for my new book, Reaching for Wonder (pre-order HERE). Here's a snippet of what I've been thinking about as I ponder those times in life when we pray on time, have faith, and trust God ... and yet God delays and death comes anyway.
Here are some thoughts from the book:
I’ve written a whole book on learning to wait well. I wrote it
because I’m terrible at waiting, and every single thing I’ve learned about
doing it well has been learned the hard way. It’s been learned like Jairus
learned, through what seemed like unnecessary pain, through God’s delays,
through deaths and resurrections.
The problem is,
death is hard. A subsequent resurrection doesn’t make the pain of hearing “your
daughter’s dead” any easier. It hurts. It chokes. It tears through our very
souls.
Wouldn’t it be
better if God came sooner, before the excruciating grief? Wouldn’t it be better
if Jesus arrived before the daughter died? If he walked faster, started sooner,
didn’t stop and turn away to talk to the bleeding woman? Or wouldn’t it have
been better if Jesus healed Jairus’ daughter from afar as he did for others in
the gospels?
But he didn’t. He
could have. But Jesus let that girl die.
Apparently, our
happiness is not so high on Jesus’ list of priorities. If it were, he would
never delay. He wouldn’t tell us “don’t be afraid, just believe,” because he
would work before we had reason to fear.
But sometimes God
delays. Sometimes he allows death to come even when we’ve had faith, we’ve
prayed, we’ve come to him in time. And in the delay, before the promises,
before resurrection, before we know what will happen next, he asks us to “just
believe" ... and we are faced with a choice between faith and "why bother."
It's not an easy choice. It's harder when everything around us says he's come too late.
But if we can wait to be overwhelmed, if we can walk past the mourners
and the mockers, if we can allow Jesus to “throw them all out,” then we may
just discover, with Jairus, the surprising wonder of “too late.”
2 comments:
Death is always in my mind. I have lost so many people this year to cancer and it is hard to deal with it sometimes. I do not understand why they died and I am still around but I am reminded Thant God's thoughts are not my own. Proverbs 4:5-6 comes in handy when I allow Satan attacks my mind.
Thank you, Sonnetta. May God continue to uphold you and strengthen you.
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