Good Enough is Not Good Enough
What do we do when all we want is
healing, but the more we pray the worse things seem to become? Usually we
convince ourselves to settle for less.
I’m
reminded of the many times my young children have tried to sneak a snack right
before dinner. They’re hungry. They just want the hunger to stop. They want the
immediate need fixed. So, Jayna (somehow it always seems to be Jayna!), tiptoes
into the pantry and very quietly and unobtrusively, pulls out a bag of chips.
Then, she opens them ever so gently and begins to nibble. And chips satisfy her
hunger for a moment, but they don’t cure the real hunger within. They don’t
nourish her deep inside, and they spoil her dinner.
Meanwhile,
I’m preparing a full meal for her complete with foods that satisfy, meats,
cheese, bread, milk, vegetables, fruit, everything that will a body needs to be
healthy and happy. I’m setting the table so we can sit around it as a family
and share life and relationship. I’m planning not just an empty experience that
satisfies the minimum need but, as a loving parent, I’m wanting and preparing
to give more, to give a healthy, whole, fully satisfying eating experience.
Jayna would settle for a bag of chips.
I want to give her a whole dinner sitting around a table, enjoying each other
and the meal. As C.S. Lewis says in The
Weight of Glory, “It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too
strong, but too weak. … like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud
pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a
holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased.”
So why do we a settle for a bag of
chips when God is preparing a full meal? Do we think we are more likely to
receive when we minimize our request? Just
heal me, Lord, and I won’t ask for anything more. I’ll settle for the minimum.
I think that way sometimes.
But this isn’t what God wants. He’s not
satisfied with the minimum fix that allows us only to go back to go back to
what we’ve know. He is determined to give us a real meal. What he wants for us
is something more, something new, something wondrous. An actual encounter with
the living God!
He will settle for nothing less. We
shouldn’t either.