I've been contemplating this story from my college days this week. So for anyone who feels like they've veered off track, here's some encouragement:
Pedal Problems
It was my first
new bike ever. A beautiful apple-red
mountain bike, with a shiny black seat and real, honest-to-goodness gears. Not many gears, but gears all the same. Unfortunately, it was also the cheapest new
bike I could find. In the weeks before
heading off to college, I had scoured the newspaper ads to find the very lowest
price for a new bike. Eventually, I
found it.
I didn’t realize
my mistake until a few months later when I was late to Chemistry class. I pedaled hard up the last hill. Gears crunched, wheels turned, my backpack
slipped sideways on my shoulder. Then,
it happened. With a sharp crack,
followed by a loud clunk, the left pedal broke and fell off my bike. I swerved off the path, brushed against a
tall pine, and finally crunched into an old wooden bench. I looked down at the spot where the pedal
should have been and at the fresh smear of grease on my pantleg.
Then, I propped
the bike against the bench and went back to retrieve the pedal. Surely I could just stick it back on, or
screw it in, or do something to make it stay put. But it wasn’t that easy. With the right tool, and a couple small
parts, the pedal could be fixed. But
that didn’t help me now, on the side of the bike path, five minutes late to
Chemistry 101.
So, I popped the
pedal into a pouch in my backpack, climbed back on the shiny black seat,
pointed the bike in the right direction, and pushed my foot against the one
pedal that was left. After two wobbly
revolutions of the wheels, I quit.
Trying to ride a bike with only one pedal was not only impractical, it
was impossible. The bike was still apple
red, the seat still shiny, the gears still working as they should. Everything was just right, except for the one
missing pedal. But that’s all it took
for the whole bike to be useless for its purpose. So, there I was, with a perfectly good bike,
minus one pedal, walking to class and pushing the bike beside me.
I learned two valuable lessons that day: First, cheapest is not always best. And second, more importantly, both pedals
need to be attached for a bike to go.
The second lesson
has come back to me often over the years since college. I don’t ride a bike much anymore, but there
still have been plenty of times when my daily life seemed to be veering off the
path and heading toward the pines. When,
no matter how hard I was trying to pedal uphill, I just couldn’t get things to
work. And in those times, most of my
life still looked right – the shiny parts were still shiny, the gears still
worked as they should. But something had
gotten lost or loosened along the way.
Something had to be fixed before my life could pedal up the straight
path again.
Sometimes that
something was a relationship that needed mending, or a habit that had to be
changed. Sometimes it was fear replacing
faith, or a hidden anger that things hadn’t gone as I’d hoped. Most often, something had gone awry
spiritually. I was too busy to take the
time needed to maintain an intimate relationship with God. So, the pedal of trust grew loose and my life
wobbled into the trees. When that
happens, I’ve found that I need to stop trying to push forward, get off the
bike for a moment, and see what’s wrong.
Then, it’s time to ask God to repair my broken parts and make me
whole.
In those times, I
often pray the words of Psalm 51:10-12 (NIV):
“Create in me a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast
spirit within me. Do not cast me from
your presence or take your Holy Spirit from me.
Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.”
And God is more
than willing to replace my pedals and help me back onto the path He’s chosen
for me.